DID MY 1st 30 MINUTE WALK....and i didnt die!

So, today is sarurday.

Picked the kid up from work.

We went to the gym, snd walked.

Todays objective....walk 1 15 minute, 1 30 minute.

Chest hurt on the 15. Took a micro break...continued to walk through it on the floor, not the treadmill, and did a full 30 minutes on the treadmill when i walked out that last bit to calm my heart down.  didn't hurt, and...i broke a small sweat. Which im gonna say...is gross!!!!

For whatever reason, i DETEST  sweating!  Its just plain nasty to me! But...i let it happen. 

And yes, i was completly grossed out by it happening. 

But i know, and understand...that to achieve my goal..its inevidable. It will HAVE to happen.

Im just gonna have to allow ot to. And ill either get used to it (right now thats laughable, lol) , or....suck it up snd just work through it everytime ( i believe thats the option ill deal with most often).

I just do not get how some ppl can LOVE  to sweat! Blah! 

Your nuts....just wanna put that out there! Lol

Walked a mile in my 30! Tried to get a pic of my final image for that and missed it by a second. So, no pic.

This pic is when I started the cool down. Wanted a pic to show I hit that 1 mile mark.

Beyond that..i was figuring out jow many times ive worked out since wednesday when i sighned up

Wed-1-night

Thur-2-morning/night

Fri-1-morning

Sat-1-morning

5 times. 4 days. 

Thats more than my original goal i had set which was 3-7 times. Well, i guess its halfway,actually. Its right in the middle. More than my lowest expectation, and not qute as high as my highest expectation.  

But its good. 

Now, if i can get the kid to agree to go at night on mon/ tues...id have 2 more in.

Not vonna do nuthing on sunday..cause they close at 8pm anyway, and i think id rather be there at night when thelace is almost dead.

I paid for an app on my iphone called:  Walkmeter.

Has a GPS in the app to calculate how far youve walked. Doesnt require cell data to be used. For tjose, like myself that have no phone plan, its good. 

App cost: 4.99 

So, i tried it out today...hoped it would log my steps for me.

Well....it didnt! You actually have to be moving form a point to another point for the app to log anything.

So, i tried another app i have. One i downloaded for free.

And it actually logged my steps for the whole 30 minutes. 

Activated by movement of the device itself. Not using a cell data or satalight to log any info.

That apps called: Stepmeter. And, again, its free. 

Turned breakfast down again. Just not in the mood to eat after a walk.

Michelle

SO, SOMETHING HAPPENED ATY THE GYM, AND SOMETHING HAPPEND AFTER THE GYM (both good)

So, i go in after i drop my son off from work, do whatever sessions i feel like, i have free range, can do as little or as much as i wanna, its completely up to me.

and i walk in, and theres this  young guy..couldnt be much older (if he even is) than my son, who was finishing up on some machine hed just worked out on.
looked at me, and smiled.

hes the 1st one who looked at me, and smiled.

well, he went about his business, and i did my treadmill thing.
i did over hear him tell Zack (the 10gym night manager guy) that hed been there since 10pm! i was in there at like midnight..what the heck?!?!? figured hed be leaving soon...
but nope..he was there till about 1am, when i was walking out the door.

i walked out, and he was outside, said hello to me..kinda shocked me, wasnt thinking anyone was out there, but..there he was..lol

found out his names Malachi, and he works at a walmart in a neighboring city.

i told him if he saw me again, to not be a stranger. im friendly..lol
i think it was his mom, who picked him up, but i had offered to take him home, hes not too far.

so, that was the thing at the gym..i think i made my 1st friend!
pretty cool!

so, i did my thing, walked, did 2 15s and ONE 20minute...just cause i wanted to see if i could manage to do a 20 minute and not die..
1st 15 was watching some boring sports junk..that 15 dragged onnnnnnn. thought it was never gonna end, took a small break, asked Zach how to do the TV, he showed me, and i adjusted it to PBS...
started off watching LAST OF THE SUMMER WINE, (a British comedy i really enjoy) and then it went to THIS OLD HOUSE...well, one 15 minute and that 20 minute walk, went by like a flash!

i have no idea where the time went with them, but they both..went away..somewhere...lol

its amazing how when you enjoy whatever it is your looking at you can allow time to slip by, but when your watching something you dont like..you hate time..lol

wernt home, rested a few, and had to go and get the kid, who was all excited about going in and working out with me...
had a bag in the car with his running shoes, had on shorts, had his ipad mini, and some earbuds, and was ready..

on the way there he asked me...

"want to have some breakfast?"
my answer........and im surprised: "after i work out"

he wanted to go home and rest, i get it, he works hard at  Coke-Cola doing manual labor, and hes tired..i get that, but i was ready, to work out..gotta make this 100.00 mean something.
so he opted for the work out.

now, im not gonna say in a month i wont think, id rather have that food, cause to be honest, i am addicted to food..ill take whatever chance i can to get it, but i wasnt going to this am..i had gotten ready, and was set to at least walk...after that, if i felt like breakfast, sure. id have some..

so, i did my thing again...
1 15 minute walk
and my 2nd walk, i did a 20 minute one.
even set my pace to higher this time on the 20. i have been doing 2.2. i went up to 2.4 (yeah. go me!)

barely can see...2.4 set.

15 minutes length i walked. (.80)

20 minutes almost a full mile (.98)

felt, after that i was good.

have to remember just a few hours earlier i had done, 2 15s and a 20...
so in less than 24 hours i had walked a total of: almost an hour and a half...

i was kinda tired...

daniel was right beside me, walking, and at one point he even ran on his treadmill...just like he said hed be, with his earbuds and his ipad mini, and some movie he had on the thing...

daniel walking

Daniel, running. he just stopped when i got this pic.

we got done, and we headed out for breakfast, and i turned the food down!
I WASNT HUNGRY!!!

whats going on with me?
ugh..so NOT who i am...lol

i know why tho..walking makes me use my tummy muscles, and i had just gotten done walking and didnt feel like i wanted anything to eat..cause i just didnt want it..but some liquid id do..
(and no, not no yucky water..BLAH!)

so, he got 3 sausage biscuits, 3 cookies, a drink, maybe a hash brown, im not sure, and i got 2 drinks.
i was good..lol

told daniel my exercise goals, to lose 20 pounds, thats where i want to be when i reach my 1st big goal, but that i have smaller goals to get there, like walking a full week at 30 minutes without a break, then walking 1 hour without a break...

he said 20 pounds lost would be a good goal.

told him im in no hurry to get to it, im just pacing myself right now. (no pressure)

 just weighed myself..

ugh..im right at the same place i always am...260...blah!

now, theres no way i expect in a few days to lose much if anything..
i always seem to balance right in between 250 and 260...so its typical for me to be there. nothing new.

i was told at the gastric surgery office, to always remove 5 pounds for clothes and stuff in your belly that you havnt gotten rid of...
so, again, that puts me right at...255ish...typical spot..lol

but im not too worried about it, not trying to lose right now, im just trying to maintain a healthy pace where i dont feel like my hearts exploding out of my chest..when i get there, ill try to lose some weight.

since gastric surgery..ive lost about 60 pounds total...i was 310 when i started.
so, im ok with where i am...im good.
im not gonna worry about the weight..its consistent, and thats ok with me.

Michelle

I DIDNT JUST DIVE IN.I DOVE INTO THE DEEP END (got a full membership to 10gym)

so, i decided...
id do it.
id go ahead and get that membership...

what am i so worried about?
just do it!
this is about you! not the rest of the world!
just..jump in!

so, i did, i didnt just jump in, i dove in, head 1st in the deep end..lol

i had a choice 10 bucks a month for a membership, or...20.00 a moth for a membership.

that was a toughie, cause i have to make sure i have that every month for the next 11 months, before i renew the membership (if i do) again. or...i pay like 70.00 something for the default fee.

so, i got ready, all dressed up in a nice neon yellow shirt...my new workout pants, my yellow ankel socks (and anyone that knows me, knows i hate to wear socks), my new awesome neon  yellow shoes, my new yellow earbuds, yellow water proof armband to hold my phone (so i can listen to music)...
took the kid to work, and told myself all the way there..

theres NOTHING to worry about, no ones gonna care your there, they dont even see you, except you SCREAM ..notice me in neon yellow..lol
DO NOT WORRY ABOUT THEM! THIS IS ABOUT YOU!

walked right up to the cvounter, and was met by Zach..hes my new guy...
and..paid for a full membership, PLUS a month a head.
97.00 bucks roughly for that.
50.00 for the annual fee, 20.00 for the month, plus 20.00 ahead. (the extra 7 is all extra taxes and  inhouse fees for stuf in the small print)

so, im ahead by a month.

got a little key fob i get to scan in to make sure im a member. and can use the equipment.

so, i went and got shown how to turn on the treadmill...
and i walked.

felt like forever...was about 18 minutes, and i had to stop..
my chest started to hurt, and i am really very paranoid about that, since my heart atatck, i have no idea whats going on when it feels stressed like it does when i do anything a little over what i normally do.
its all prolly psychosymatic (all in my head) , but i stop, to calm down, anyway. just in case.,

sat for a few, to get myself on a level i felt i could continue...and i went back on the  treadmill for another 15 minutes.

30. thats all. i was sweating drops. no lie..thats enough for one day...

felt like a wet noodle after i got off that thing, my legs were all wobbly and seriously, i felt like a slice of bologna! floppy and loose, not in a good way either..lol 

so, i went home, hit the house about 1am, craig got up at 2am, and woke me up...i managed, to grab a couple of hours before i had to get back up at 5 to go get the kid from work..

i am sore! 30 minutes! and im litterally sore! thats just crazy!

so, i go get him, he gets in the car, i say "look what i got"
and i show him the 10gym key fob on my car keys.

his eyes got wide, and he looked at me and asked...do you get to take someone?

i told him with the basic 10.00 membership, no, i couldnt, but i didnt get that one, i opted for the other just in case he did decide to come along.

little did i know it would be...this am!

he wanted to go by there and get a tour, before we went home, so, we drove over there...and zack, smiled and seemed a bit shocked to see me back in since i had left, he met daniel, and had him sign a waiver as a guest. and i gave daniel a tour, he got on the treadmill for a few, and said, he was gonna work out..right next to me when we worked out the same days..

yeah, nice dream, but when hes available, place will be busy, unless we go at night, when were both up and active..
place is closed friday night after 10 pm, when im on my way back from dropping the kid off at about 11ishpm, so id have to go during saturday sometime...or during the day on friday.

daniels even gonna pack a bag, with gym shorts, a towel, water bottle, his running shoes. so he can change and go with me on the way back from his work..

so, ill workout 2 times on tursdays it looks like, after i drop him off, and again after i pick him up...

ill have to redo this schedule...
gonna have to include him now..and his availability..

fridays when i pick up daniel, craigs with us...and hes not gonna wanna sit for a half hour, to an hour waiting on us to get done at the gym, maybe well leave craig home, gym opens at 6am fridays, we can get in, get that done..

IF the kid wants to, of course...id just wanna go home and got to sleep...lol...i want to anyway, but id go into the gym if he really wanted to...

well see how much he wants to do this...
well see how far i feel my 97.00 will go...

ok..so schedule for 10gym looks like this:

MON - opens at 5am-24 hours/
TUE - 24 hours/
WED - 24 Hours/ i go in 11pm, walk 30 minutes
THU - 24 Hour / i go in 11pm , walk 30 minutes
                         / i go in 7am, walk 30 minutes
FRI - close at 10pm /7am walking 30+ minutes
SAT - 6am-8pm/
SUN 8qm-8pm/

with just the wednesday and thrudays (2 times) i can get in 3 workouts for the week...
thats 30 minutes each time, just trying, at this point to build myself up to endurance , so i can go an hour..
so im starting low and slow.

if i do the friday morning thats 4 workouts in 3 days...with potential to do more on days daniels hime, at night (when hes most active, and i happen to be as well) 2 more, actually...monday/tues.
makes a total of 6 sessions 5 days. 

eventually, ill work my way up to that Couch to 5K, i wanna do..
after that ill run a 5k..

but those are the long term goals.
you start small..
and i want to walk 30 minutes without needing a break, for a full week (3-7days)
when i get that done, ill walk for an hour, without a break (3-7 days)

somewhere in there maybe lose a wight goal of 20 pounds.

i can do this.
i got this.

:)

Michelle

SO THE KID WANTS TO GO AS A FREEBIE IF I JOIN THIS 10GYM

so, after i picked the kid up this am. i tell him last night i stalked the 10gyms parking lot and then actually walked in, and told him all about hunky Andrew, and all the  machines, and what the place looked like, and everything..

also mentioned, if i got a membership...
i could take a person for free, every day.

well, like a typical moocher kid that he is (even tho hes 20),lol, he says..OH? I COULD GO WITH YOU THEN!
yes, yes, son, you could. and id prolly prefer it if you did..
seriously, id feel way more comfortable if i had someone i knew there with me.
(thats including all the offers from church friends i have had..and thats been about 10 offers now, im guessing, even had a couple last night at church, re-offer)

he even said hed go in with me on his days off.
and i suggested he may want to build himself up to do the training at the detention center before his pysical they will push him through to make sure hes eligible for the job.

but on nights hes working...ill be...alone.

he told me hes talked to, or read stuff about buff guys who work out, who see someone like me in the place, and he said they have a high respect for someone whos putting it out there, and WORKING for that change...shows commitment, because even where they are (all hunk-i-fied, and buff) was a commitment to make to achieve. and if they dont say it, they appreciate the effort to change and make yourself better.

i asked, if daniel (the kid) would be willing to pay half the  money for the monthly, for the opportunity to use the stuff...and he flat out told  me..NO!
(im betting tho, after he goes and sees im in this for bettering my health, hed reconsider that, dont know, hes still in selfish mode sometimes, hard to gauge that..lol)
said if he had to pay, hed just stay home and play on his xbox (he does that anyway).

this is for me.
a gift to myself, because i..DESERVE this.

now, just to step over that line, and actually get that membership...
such a big decision, like being married.
marriage takes work, so will better health and wellness....

its all in the head,
small steps to larger better promising health.
thats the reward, better health.
if i look hotter (cause i look hot now..LOL i crack myself up!lol) thats a pure bonus!

oh, i forgot to mention, i got on a scale when i was there last night, and typically, im between 250-260...been there ever since my gastric surgery...4 years ago...5 years when march rolls around...
time to see if i cant break that platue, but thats not the objective, nope...

small little goals.

1st one, pay for membership..

2- walk on a tradmill, 30 minutes, non stop. take as long as you need to build this up
(building stamina)
3-walk on a treadmill 30 minutes non stop 3-7 times a week take as long as you need to build this up
(building Stamina)

4-walk on treadmill 1 hour 3-7 times a week. take as long as you need to build this up
(building stamina)

5- start the Couch-to-5K program with walking as the running. (building stamina to the run part)
6-intigrate running for 1minute in between sessions of 10 minutes walking (take as long as needed to build up to the ability to run a full minute, and not feel like your gonna die.
7-do couch-to-5K WITH running, with a program loaded onto iphone

by the time im done with the couch-to-5K program, id be able to run a 5k.

but THAT dreams, somewhere way down far far away...
but to get to it, i have to set small goals.

all the while, 20 pounds is my 1st weight loss goal. drop 20 and celebrate with something for myself.

just have to set my mind to doing this.

MICHELLE

"YOU SHOULD DO SOMETHING FOR YOURSELF. SOMETHING THAT WILL MAKE YOU A BETTER PERSON"

so, i guess yesterday, or rather, last night was a "break through" of sorts, i drove home tonight after dropping the kid off at work, and thought about last night and how i felt, and  just everything in general.

and had the impression i needed to do something...for me.
something id want..
something that..would make me..a better person.

what we each think to make us better is individual.
theres not one thing that all can do to achieve this marker. you have to figure this out for yourself.

so...what do i want?
for me?
that would make me a better person?

its crazy, cause its so NOT my thing..
but i want to join a gym, and work out..

heres my reasons.

1)- im fat. not gonna lie, i am. its the truth, while i am NOT AS FAT as i was, i still have weight.
i had gastric surgery..in march, 4 years ago? or was it 5 now? id have to go check my youtube for that..lol
anyway, ive lost 60-70 pounds since then, but have stalled. i havnt gained anything back, but i also have not lost anything more.
and im SUPPOSED to be (by their scale) 100 pounds lighter. theyd like me to be at 160.
thats 100.pounds (roughly) to go. 20 more off, would mean i hit halfway to that goal (if im doing my math right, i suck at math so my numbers can be way off).

found this quote i liked, thought it was fitting for this part of my blog

personally, i feel 160, is too small...and id fit a 180 MUCH better and still feel ok about myself.
if thats my goal (and personally, to me it is) i only have 80 more to go. i like that number..MUCH better..lol

2)- i had a heart attack a couple of years ago. so i really need to attempt to build that muscle up to something after that damage (which was minimal, but still..damage)

3)- i deserve this. this is for me. my gift, to myself...and my husband, and my son, and all the ppl who know me, love me, hate ,e and are indifferent to me. it helping me to stay around.

so, naturally, this will require a commitment, to myself to obtain.
and i have thought about this for a long time..rolled it around in my head (and heart) and been thinking about joining a gym.

i am such a weinie when it comes to ppl looking at me, and..judging me.
even tho, im a strong personality, i have this fear, that ppl will judge me based on my weight. and  it happens. even as an adult, i experience it, i get stares and glares, and condecending looks from ppl , but i usually just brush that stuff off...
and i say to ppl all the time, "that persons opinion of you doesnt matter, what matters is YOUR opinion of you"
yet, for this, for some odd reason, it matters to me...
another thing to work through, i guess, another demon to face and vanquish.

so yeah, i have issues, lol (who doesnt, lol)

last month i was invited to 1gym with a church freind, for thursday morning, and i had to cancel out a couple of times...mainly because im on the kids schedule, and up half the night and then i go get him, and have a really hard time trying to swap my shedule artound to accomodate the morning zumba hours, when im just ready for sleep..

but, at the same time, after i drop him off at work, i am absolutly wired!
and its come to my thinking, why not burn that off..somehow, by, oh say, tripping into the gym after youve dropped him off, and ...oh say...walking on the treadmill for an hour?

on his off days, i could go in in the am, or afternoon...

hers my local 10gyms schedule. it would be awesome if there was one closer to the kid, so i could just  go in and not worry about that drive to get to it, its like 10 minutes from my house. but either way, i guess, its a long drive, id just think after a good walk, id be thinking about that and not my mom so much.

heres the hours...
i was reading some of the comments that ppl had rated the place and the fact that they say they are open 24 hours and then they arnt was a huge issue for some, but im not too worried about that, because id hit it when i could...

when i take the kid to work its late wednesdays,, thursdays, and fridays. fridays im with craig, we take the kid together, just because its  harder for me to see at night, and i like being with him, we can share some time together...so we do that together, so i dont think, if be going to the gym on a friday night...they wouldnt be open when ive taken daniel to work, anyway.

so, for 2 nights i could go in and walk allot of steam off, if i wanted to.
and danisl days off (saturday, sunday, monday, tuesday) i can go in and do my thing during the day time...
i like that they have zumba on 3 of those days...(tuesday, thursday, saturday)
i can skip thrusday if im walking, OR..i could do a double up, and do zumba that morning, and walking that night to make up for the one day i wont have anything to do...

so my schedule for this place could look like this somewhat:

SUNDAY- 8am-8pm, walk on treadmill

MONDAY-5am(open)-walk in treadmill

TUESDAY-9:15am: ZUMBA

WEDNESDAY-(kid to work) walk on treadmill

THURSDAY-9:15am ZUMBA (kid to work)/ walk on treadmill

FRIDAY-before close (10pm) walk on treadmill

SATURDAY 6am-8pm- 11:15am ZUMBA

even if i never did any ZUMBA (id like to build myself up to that, to be honest), id get 3-5 days of walking in...and thats healthy.

so, tonight, on the way back from taking the kid into work, i drove into the parkinglot, anytime wed drive by id try to see what it looked like from the road, and never could, tonight, i was in the parking lot..alone. and drive past the front doors where i could see the exercise equipment, looked like a ton of weigh machines, i didnt notice any treadmills, but im sure there were some...
crazy as it is, at 11pm, theres like 20 cars in that lot. insane. mostly guys.
ugh. all buff looking too. double ugh.

not my favorite fan base, but what the heck, maybe they will gain an appreciation for someone MY age (lol, 47, not like im geriatric or anything..lol) whos overweight, and trying her best to drop..20 pounds...thats my 1st goal.

make the goals attainable...not unreasonable.
work how ever long it takes to get to that goal.
appreciate the effort, the reward will be amazing! (hard, no doubt, but AMAZING!)

so thats the plan...now, when will i start this? who knows..lol maybe ill swing by tomorrow afternoon and do it.
its a monthly charge on my card. 20.00 i have 60+ on it now, and extra in cash i can put on it..

have to say, i am thankful i am babysitting, which can feed this for me as im working this...
perfect payments too. :)

i even have an outfit i had went and got, new exercize pants, and shoes  and a shirt, just to work out in, and i have yet to break any of that in...
i can at least do that..lol use that as the excuse to break in those new NEON YELLOW SHOES i got to do all this in..lol

Michelle