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Showing posts with label Wellness. Show all posts
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Friday, February 6, 2015

STORY - Everyone Was Warned Not to Touch Him – But This Guy Did

Everyone Was Warned Not to Touch Him – But This Guy Did


Original online story can be found here.

Man picks this cat up off the ground and tries to carry him home. Then something heartbreaking happens…
(grab a tissue, this may make your heart melt.)


Everyone in the apartment complex where I lived knew who Ugly was. Ugly was the resident Tomcat.

Ugly loved three things in this world: fighting eating, garbage, and shall we say love. The combination of these things combined with the life spend outside had their effect on Ugly.
To start with, he only had one eye, and where the other should of been was a gaping hole. He was also missing his ear on the other side, his left foot appeared to have been badly broken at one time. and he healed at an unnatural angle, making him look like he was always turning the corner. His tail has long since been lost, leaving only the smallest stub, which he would constantly jerk and twitch. Ugly would have been a dark gray tabby striped- type, except for the sores covering his head, neck, even his shoulders with thick, yellowing scabs.

Every time someone saw Ugly there was the same reaction. “That’s one Ugly cat!!”

All the children were warned not to touch him, the adults threw rocks at him, hosed him down, squirted him when he tried to come close to their homes, or shut his paws in the door when he would not leave.

Ugly always had the same reaction. If you turned the hose on him, he would stand there getting soaked until you gave up and quit. if you threw things at him, he would curl his lanky body around feet in forgiveness. Whenever he spied children, he would come running meowing frantically and bump his head against their hands, begging for their love. If you ever picked him up he would immediately begin suckling on your shirt, earrings, or whatever he could find.

One day Ugly shared his love with the neighbors huskies. They did not respond kindly, and Ugly was badly mauled. From my apartment I could hear his screams, and I tried to rush to his aid. By the time I got where he was laying, it was apparent Ugly’s sad life was almost at an end.
Ugly lay in a wet circle, his back legs and lower back twisted grossly out of shape, a gaping tear in the white strip of fur that ran down his front. As I picked him up and tried to carry him home, I could hear him whizzing and gasping, and could feel him struggling. I must be hurting him terribly I thought.

Then I felt a familiar tugging and suckling sensation on my ear – Ugly, in so much pain, suffering and obviously trying to suckling my ear. I pulled him closer to me and he bump the palm of my hand with his head, then he turned his one golden eye towards me, and I could hear the distinct sound of purring. Even in the greatest pain, that ugly battled-scared cat was asking only for a little affection, perhaps some compassion.

At that moment I though Ugly was the beautiful, loving creature I have ever seen. Never once did he try to bite or scratch me, or even try to get away from me, or struggle in any way. Ugly just looked at me completely trusting in me to relieve his pain.

Ugly died in my arms before I could get inside, but I sat and held him for a long time afterwards, thinking how one scarred, deformed little stray could so alter my opinion of what it means to have true pureness of spirit, to love so totally and truly. Ugly taught me about more about giving and compassion than a thousand books, lectures, or talk shows special ever could, and for that I will always be thankful. He had been scarred on the outside, but I was scarred on the inside, and it was time for me to move on and learn to love truly and deeply. To give my total to those I care for.
Many people want to be richer, more successful, well like, beautiful,  but for me, I will always try to be Ugly!


this story touched me...and thats why i wanted to post it to my blog.
 
yesterday, i was with a church companion, and we visited another sister in my church (The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints AKA: Mormon).
we have a program where we have a set of female congregational members, assigned to every other female, so ever female has someone come by at least once a month (or writes, or prays for them) to make sure they are ok, and we share a message.
 
so, the message was about the Attributes of Jesus Christ. (that message can be found here )
and one point marcia (my companion) had brought up was what the difference of PURITY and PERFECTION was.

i only reference that in this..as theres a part in the story where the author talks about purity.

i digress, my point for blogging this story, was because i have said for a long time, that all anyone (anything, really) wants is to be loved.
thats it.
loved with a purity, no restrictions, no demands, no limits, no reasons..just. plain. loved.
no matter what wrong, we have done, we know that person still loves us.
thats what we want.
animals, i feel, have emotion, ive said this for years, and i think are very much like us..they want to be loved.
no matter how mean we are, a dog will still..wag its tail when it sees us..for the love. a cat, will usually pur when we pet it, and they are filled with an attitude, most of the time, lol

this story, reminded me, on some level, were all broken, and hurting, or at least seeking a higher love than ourselves. 

i know im broken, have been for a long time, its taken me years to find the right glue" to patch my broken heart.
and i wear it on my sleeve.
i am effected by my past. 
its always there, in my face, and all i wanted was the love from a mother.
i never had a dad to get it from, so my only option was my mom. and she lacked (to me anyway) in the loving department...she was a rpvider, a good one, cant fault that..but she didnt show me love.

its taken me almost 50 years to realize, she never loved herself, enough to give to me.

we have to won it first before we can share it with others. and thats often (in my case anyway) a long hard deep hurting road we walk.

how often do we really appreciate the love someone else shows us in return if we do get it? or are we suspicious of its reasons?

i try to love ppl with the same love i have for my son..
if i say i love you, thats because i really do.
i feel a deep bond, and will think of that person all the time, in different ways and situations.

im an admin for a group on facebook with nearly 4K ppl in it (to date) and i think of my admins, almost the entire time im away from the group. wondering if they are struggling, having issues with members, are they frustrated? angry? upset at another member? 
most of the time, they are fine...
but i worry, because i dont want them to suffer any more pain and issue than they should.

i think of friends, all the time, even ones from my days in Bethesda MD). i wonder how they are, if lifes treating them ok. are they hurting. and if so, i pray they come through it without scars.
i think of my best friend, sandy..shes like a sister to me, and altho she makes some pretty crappy choices, it doesnt warrant me to let her go, and dump her. i cant save her, but i can always love her...and i want desperately for her to see her value within herself...but thats a struggle she has to face within her own person. i can always be there when shes ready..but i cant hand those precious keys over.i dont own hers...i only own mine.

i think of former co-workers, and ppl i pass on the street and simply say hello to. 
i try to love everyone.

im not gonna lie, some ppl are harder to love...that makes the challenge of acting in purity its finest.
without the  conflict, theres never growth.
you have to have  strife, to grow...
 
a seed PUSHES through the dirt to pop its blossom out...

a child, is SQUEEZED by muscles and organs and thrust into the world at birth.

we can not...become better if we are never challenged.
we HAVE to suffer something to appreciate the difference from where we were to where we end up.

in the end, what we do effects other. and we have a deeper love (if it was goodness we shared) towards them, which lends itself to a purity in love.

im this sad kitten, broken, hurt, longing, for someone to just scoop me up and love me. (mainly my mom, who sadly isnt here any longer, doesnt take away the fact i ach for that love from her)

i see it more and more every day..ppl in my life willing to cry with me, over things i have emotions for, ppl who share sentiments with me on facebook, because it makes them think of me, ppl who go out and get me things because i like them..
i am loved.
and i can see it now, more and more.
what i lack in my mothers aection, is given to me in sprinkles with others around me.
i am NOT forgotten...
(im gonna go religious here, forgive me if its not your thing)
 
God has NEVER stopped loving me. EVER, no matter what i have done, or what condition i am in, or how i look, or the way i behave..HE STILL loves me.
and i believe, has these other ppl in my life to fill the void...
it will never fill it comepltely, but it sure does help to remember that because i am who i am, Hes always going to provide, even when to me it seems completely hopeless.
the pain and loss of my mom may never ever go away, but it is being healed. day by day.

that love, helps me to be a better person...that love helps me to grow.

if you see someone struggling, whats your reaction? do you walk by and  hope you forget them? or do you stop, and extend a hand...

are you everyone else? or are you the guy who helped "Ugly" the cat? 
because some of us are  "Ugly" and all we need is compassion...
some of us only want to be...loved.

Michelle

Saturday, January 31, 2015

DID MY 1st 30 MINUTE WALK....and i didnt die!

So, today is sarurday.
Picked the kid up from work.
We went to the gym, snd walked.

Todays objective....walk 1 15 minute, 1 30 minute.

Chest hurt on the 15. Took a micro break...continued to walk through it on the floor, not the treadmill, and did a full 30 minutes on the treadmill when i walked out that last bit to calm my heart down.  didn't hurt, and...i broke a small sweat. Which im gonna say...is gross!!!!
For whatever reason, i DETEST  sweating!  Its just plain nasty to me! But...i let it happen. 

And yes, i was completly grossed out by it happening. 


But i know, and understand...that to achieve my goal..its inevidable. It will HAVE to happen.
Im just gonna have to allow ot to. And ill either get used to it (right now thats laughable, lol) , or....suck it up snd just work through it everytime ( i believe thats the option ill deal with most often).

I just do not get how some ppl can LOVE  to sweat! Blah! 
Your nuts....just wanna put that out there! Lol

Walked a mile in my 30! Tried to get a pic of my final image for that and missed it by a second. So, no pic.


This pic is when I started the cool down. Wanted a pic to show I hit that 1 mile mark.

Beyond that..i was figuring out jow many times ive worked out since wednesday when i sighned up

Wed-1-night
Thur-2-morning/night
Fri-1-morning
Sat-1-morning

5 times. 4 days. 
Thats more than my original goal i had set which was 3-7 times. Well, i guess its halfway,actually. Its right in the middle. More than my lowest expectation, and not qute as high as my highest expectation.  
But its good. 

Now, if i can get the kid to agree to go at night on mon/ tues...id have 2 more in.
Not vonna do nuthing on sunday..cause they close at 8pm anyway, and i think id rather be there at night when thelace is almost dead.

I paid for an app on my iphone called:  Walkmeter.

Has a GPS in the app to calculate how far youve walked. Doesnt require cell data to be used. For tjose, like myself that have no phone plan, its good. 
App cost: 4.99 
So, i tried it out today...hoped it would log my steps for me.
Well....it didnt! You actually have to be moving form a point to another point for the app to log anything.

So, i tried another app i have. One i downloaded for free.
And it actually logged my steps for the whole 30 minutes. 
Activated by movement of the device itself. Not using a cell data or satalight to log any info.
That apps called: Stepmeter. And, again, its free. 

Turned breakfast down again. Just not in the mood to eat after a walk.

Michelle

Friday, January 30, 2015

SO, SOMETHING HAPPENED ATY THE GYM, AND SOMETHING HAPPEND AFTER THE GYM (both good)



So, i go in after i drop my son off from work, do whatever sessions i feel like, i have free range, can do as little or as much as i wanna, its completely up to me.

and i walk in, and theres this  young guy..couldnt be much older (if he even is) than my son, who was finishing up on some machine hed just worked out on.
looked at me, and smiled.

hes the 1st one who looked at me, and smiled.

well, he went about his business, and i did my treadmill thing.
i did over hear him tell Zack (the 10gym night manager guy) that hed been there since 10pm! i was in there at like midnight..what the heck?!?!? figured hed be leaving soon...
but nope..he was there till about 1am, when i was walking out the door.

i walked out, and he was outside, said hello to me..kinda shocked me, wasnt thinking anyone was out there, but..there he was..lol

found out his names Malachi, and he works at a walmart in a neighboring city.

i told him if he saw me again, to not be a stranger. im friendly..lol
i think it was his mom, who picked him up, but i had offered to take him home, hes not too far.

so, that was the thing at the gym..i think i made my 1st friend!
pretty cool!

so, i did my thing, walked, did 2 15s and ONE 20minute...just cause i wanted to see if i could manage to do a 20 minute and not die..
1st 15 was watching some boring sports junk..that 15 dragged onnnnnnn. thought it was never gonna end, took a small break, asked Zach how to do the TV, he showed me, and i adjusted it to PBS...
started off watching LAST OF THE SUMMER WINE, (a British comedy i really enjoy) and then it went to THIS OLD HOUSE...well, one 15 minute and that 20 minute walk, went by like a flash!

i have no idea where the time went with them, but they both..went away..somewhere...lol

its amazing how when you enjoy whatever it is your looking at you can allow time to slip by, but when your watching something you dont like..you hate time..lol

wernt home, rested a few, and had to go and get the kid, who was all excited about going in and working out with me...
had a bag in the car with his running shoes, had on shorts, had his ipad mini, and some earbuds, and was ready..

on the way there he asked me...

"want to have some breakfast?"
my answer........and im surprised: "after i work out"

he wanted to go home and rest, i get it, he works hard at  Coke-Cola doing manual labor, and hes tired..i get that, but i was ready, to work out..gotta make this 100.00 mean something.
so he opted for the work out.

now, im not gonna say in a month i wont think, id rather have that food, cause to be honest, i am addicted to food..ill take whatever chance i can to get it, but i wasnt going to this am..i had gotten ready, and was set to at least walk...after that, if i felt like breakfast, sure. id have some..

so, i did my thing again...
1 15 minute walk
and my 2nd walk, i did a 20 minute one.
even set my pace to higher this time on the 20. i have been doing 2.2. i went up to 2.4 (yeah. go me!)


barely can see...2.4 set.
15 minutes length i walked. (.80)
20 minutes almost a full mile (.98)

felt, after that i was good.

have to remember just a few hours earlier i had done, 2 15s and a 20...
so in less than 24 hours i had walked a total of: almost an hour and a half...

i was kinda tired...

daniel was right beside me, walking, and at one point he even ran on his treadmill...just like he said hed be, with his earbuds and his ipad mini, and some movie he had on the thing...
daniel walking

Daniel, running. he just stopped when i got this pic.

we got done, and we headed out for breakfast, and i turned the food down!
I WASNT HUNGRY!!!

whats going on with me?
ugh..so NOT who i am...lol

i know why tho..walking makes me use my tummy muscles, and i had just gotten done walking and didnt feel like i wanted anything to eat..cause i just didnt want it..but some liquid id do..
(and no, not no yucky water..BLAH!)

so, he got 3 sausage biscuits, 3 cookies, a drink, maybe a hash brown, im not sure, and i got 2 drinks.
i was good..lol

told daniel my exercise goals, to lose 20 pounds, thats where i want to be when i reach my 1st big goal, but that i have smaller goals to get there, like walking a full week at 30 minutes without a break, then walking 1 hour without a break...

he said 20 pounds lost would be a good goal.

told him im in no hurry to get to it, im just pacing myself right now. (no pressure)

 just weighed myself..

ugh..im right at the same place i always am...260...blah!

now, theres no way i expect in a few days to lose much if anything..
i always seem to balance right in between 250 and 260...so its typical for me to be there. nothing new.

i was told at the gastric surgery office, to always remove 5 pounds for clothes and stuff in your belly that you havnt gotten rid of...
so, again, that puts me right at...255ish...typical spot..lol

but im not too worried about it, not trying to lose right now, im just trying to maintain a healthy pace where i dont feel like my hearts exploding out of my chest..when i get there, ill try to lose some weight.

since gastric surgery..ive lost about 60 pounds total...i was 310 when i started.
so, im ok with where i am...im good.
im not gonna worry about the weight..its consistent, and thats ok with me.

Michelle

I DIDNT JUST DIVE IN.I DOVE INTO THE DEEP END (got a full membership to 10gym)



so, i decided...
id do it.
id go ahead and get that membership...

what am i so worried about?
just do it!
this is about you! not the rest of the world!
just..jump in!

so, i did, i didnt just jump in, i dove in, head 1st in the deep end..lol

i had a choice 10 bucks a month for a membership, or...20.00 a moth for a membership.

that was a toughie, cause i have to make sure i have that every month for the next 11 months, before i renew the membership (if i do) again. or...i pay like 70.00 something for the default fee.

so, i got ready, all dressed up in a nice neon yellow shirt...my new workout pants, my yellow ankel socks (and anyone that knows me, knows i hate to wear socks), my new awesome neon  yellow shoes, my new yellow earbuds, yellow water proof armband to hold my phone (so i can listen to music)...
took the kid to work, and told myself all the way there..

theres NOTHING to worry about, no ones gonna care your there, they dont even see you, except you SCREAM ..notice me in neon yellow..lol
DO NOT WORRY ABOUT THEM! THIS IS ABOUT YOU!

walked right up to the cvounter, and was met by Zach..hes my new guy...
and..paid for a full membership, PLUS a month a head.
97.00 bucks roughly for that.
50.00 for the annual fee, 20.00 for the month, plus 20.00 ahead. (the extra 7 is all extra taxes and  inhouse fees for stuf in the small print)

so, im ahead by a month.

got a little key fob i get to scan in to make sure im a member. and can use the equipment.

so, i went and got shown how to turn on the treadmill...
and i walked.

felt like forever...was about 18 minutes, and i had to stop..
my chest started to hurt, and i am really very paranoid about that, since my heart atatck, i have no idea whats going on when it feels stressed like it does when i do anything a little over what i normally do.
its all prolly psychosymatic (all in my head) , but i stop, to calm down, anyway. just in case.,

sat for a few, to get myself on a level i felt i could continue...and i went back on the  treadmill for another 15 minutes.

30. thats all. i was sweating drops. no lie..thats enough for one day...

felt like a wet noodle after i got off that thing, my legs were all wobbly and seriously, i felt like a slice of bologna! floppy and loose, not in a good way either..lol 

so, i went home, hit the house about 1am, craig got up at 2am, and woke me up...i managed, to grab a couple of hours before i had to get back up at 5 to go get the kid from work..

i am sore! 30 minutes! and im litterally sore! thats just crazy!

so, i go get him, he gets in the car, i say "look what i got"
and i show him the 10gym key fob on my car keys.

his eyes got wide, and he looked at me and asked...do you get to take someone?

i told him with the basic 10.00 membership, no, i couldnt, but i didnt get that one, i opted for the other just in case he did decide to come along.

little did i know it would be...this am!

he wanted to go by there and get a tour, before we went home, so, we drove over there...and zack, smiled and seemed a bit shocked to see me back in since i had left, he met daniel, and had him sign a waiver as a guest. and i gave daniel a tour, he got on the treadmill for a few, and said, he was gonna work out..right next to me when we worked out the same days..

yeah, nice dream, but when hes available, place will be busy, unless we go at night, when were both up and active..
place is closed friday night after 10 pm, when im on my way back from dropping the kid off at about 11ishpm, so id have to go during saturday sometime...or during the day on friday.

daniels even gonna pack a bag, with gym shorts, a towel, water bottle, his running shoes. so he can change and go with me on the way back from his work..

so, ill workout 2 times on tursdays it looks like, after i drop him off, and again after i pick him up...

ill have to redo this schedule...
gonna have to include him now..and his availability..

fridays when i pick up daniel, craigs with us...and hes not gonna wanna sit for a half hour, to an hour waiting on us to get done at the gym, maybe well leave craig home, gym opens at 6am fridays, we can get in, get that done..

IF the kid wants to, of course...id just wanna go home and got to sleep...lol...i want to anyway, but id go into the gym if he really wanted to...

well see how much he wants to do this...
well see how far i feel my 97.00 will go...

ok..so schedule for 10gym looks like this:


MON - opens at 5am-24 hours/
TUE - 24 hours/
WED - 24 Hours/ i go in 11pm, walk 30 minutes
THU - 24 Hour / i go in 11pm , walk 30 minutes
                         / i go in 7am, walk 30 minutes
FRI - close at 10pm /7am walking 30+ minutes
SAT - 6am-8pm/
SUN 8qm-8pm/

with just the wednesday and thrudays (2 times) i can get in 3 workouts for the week...
thats 30 minutes each time, just trying, at this point to build myself up to endurance , so i can go an hour..
so im starting low and slow.

if i do the friday morning thats 4 workouts in 3 days...with potential to do more on days daniels hime, at night (when hes most active, and i happen to be as well) 2 more, actually...monday/tues.
makes a total of 6 sessions 5 days. 

eventually, ill work my way up to that Couch to 5K, i wanna do..
after that ill run a 5k..

but those are the long term goals.
you start small..
and i want to walk 30 minutes without needing a break, for a full week (3-7days)
when i get that done, ill walk for an hour, without a break (3-7 days)

somewhere in there maybe lose a wight goal of 20 pounds.

i can do this.
i got this.

:)

Michelle

Thursday, January 15, 2015

SO THE KID WANTS TO GO AS A FREEBIE IF I JOIN THIS 10GYM



so, after i picked the kid up this am. i tell him last night i stalked the 10gyms parking lot and then actually walked in, and told him all about hunky Andrew, and all the  machines, and what the place looked like, and everything..

also mentioned, if i got a membership...
i could take a person for free, every day.

well, like a typical moocher kid that he is (even tho hes 20),lol, he says..OH? I COULD GO WITH YOU THEN!
yes, yes, son, you could. and id prolly prefer it if you did..
seriously, id feel way more comfortable if i had someone i knew there with me.
(thats including all the offers from church friends i have had..and thats been about 10 offers now, im guessing, even had a couple last night at church, re-offer)

he even said hed go in with me on his days off.
and i suggested he may want to build himself up to do the training at the detention center before his pysical they will push him through to make sure hes eligible for the job.

but on nights hes working...ill be...alone.

he told me hes talked to, or read stuff about buff guys who work out, who see someone like me in the place, and he said they have a high respect for someone whos putting it out there, and WORKING for that change...shows commitment, because even where they are (all hunk-i-fied, and buff) was a commitment to make to achieve. and if they dont say it, they appreciate the effort to change and make yourself better.

i asked, if daniel (the kid) would be willing to pay half the  money for the monthly, for the opportunity to use the stuff...and he flat out told  me..NO!
(im betting tho, after he goes and sees im in this for bettering my health, hed reconsider that, dont know, hes still in selfish mode sometimes, hard to gauge that..lol)
said if he had to pay, hed just stay home and play on his xbox (he does that anyway).

this is for me.
a gift to myself, because i..DESERVE this.

now, just to step over that line, and actually get that membership...
such a big decision, like being married.
marriage takes work, so will better health and wellness....

its all in the head,
small steps to larger better promising health.
thats the reward, better health.
if i look hotter (cause i look hot now..LOL i crack myself up!lol) thats a pure bonus!

oh, i forgot to mention, i got on a scale when i was there last night, and typically, im between 250-260...been there ever since my gastric surgery...4 years ago...5 years when march rolls around...
time to see if i cant break that platue, but thats not the objective, nope...

small little goals.

1st one, pay for membership..

2- walk on a tradmill, 30 minutes, non stop. take as long as you need to build this up
(building stamina)
3-walk on a treadmill 30 minutes non stop 3-7 times a week take as long as you need to build this up
(building Stamina)

4-walk on treadmill 1 hour 3-7 times a week. take as long as you need to build this up
(building stamina)

5- start the Couch-to-5K program with walking as the running. (building stamina to the run part)
6-intigrate running for 1minute in between sessions of 10 minutes walking (take as long as needed to build up to the ability to run a full minute, and not feel like your gonna die.
7-do couch-to-5K WITH running, with a program loaded onto iphone

by the time im done with the couch-to-5K program, id be able to run a 5k.

but THAT dreams, somewhere way down far far away...
but to get to it, i have to set small goals.

all the while, 20 pounds is my 1st weight loss goal. drop 20 and celebrate with something for myself.

just have to set my mind to doing this.

MICHELLE



I WALKED IN & AND BACK OUT, But Not Without Some Info (Got my toes wet)


so, im STILL thinking about joining 10Gym, and last night at church, i was talking about it..

said i was afraid, because ppl would be looking at me...

took the kid to his job, went by and sat in the parkinglot like a stalker, lol...
and saw ppl going in, and coming out.

and one guy..renewed his membership.

so, i took a deep breath, and mustered every single nerve within me, to walk right up to the door.

took another deep breath, and opened that door.
then another deep one, to open the 2nd door, and...walk up to the desk.

now if anyone who knows me knows me well enough to know i chatter, allot, i do it even more so when my nerves are on edge, and..it was so..

i walked right up to the desk, this cute, handsome, HUNK (ugh, hate myself sometimes) turned around and was looking at me, as i babbled on and on and on about the fact i had been bascially, challeneged to just..."get the tour" to see what the gym was like.

thats all i was there for, "feeling" the place out.

his names Andrew, by the way. hes got Greek heritage in him, lol. came from washington state, because of a girl hes been dating for 2 years, not gonna ssk her to get married to hes finaicially able, and hes headed back to take care of family (a sick uncle, with cancer) on sunday...
yup..he told me every bit of that, lol

i asked questions, ALLOT of questions,

do you have treadmills?
yes, 3 different kinds, right behind the desk, thats out Cardio equipment. and we looked them over.

whats the deal with paym,ents, if i want to pay in cash can i?
yes, you come in the day before your dues are due, and pay cash, OR you can get a prepaid, allot of ppl dont have a bank, and they load up a prepaid with a few month/ a year, and pay with that prepaid.

do you think that guy standing over there looking at me is looking at me cause im awesome?
i didnt ask that..lol
and no one looked at me until they were looking at him and waving goodbuy..

all of them smiles, every last guy in the place that was working out, who i made eye contact with, smiled at me...

there was a chick or two in there, but not too many..

no one was talking, they were ALL working out.

so, i got my toes wet, so to speak...
i went IN, and got info, and walked back out with it in my hand to tell craig..

i deserve this. and maybe if i have to pay to do it, ill actually...do it.
cause ill feel guilty, if i dont.

1 year contract (for a program with no contract, lol) 49.00
and  monthly payments of 19.00.

but i get ZUMBA, cardio (treadmill) and any number of other things i may want to engage in within a year...

heck. i could couch-to-5K there! right on a treadmill!
start off slow, work my way up to a run...

maybe i will!

maybe i will...






Michelle